Old Man Posted August 26, 2020 Report Share Posted August 26, 2020 Anyone not feeling despair right now isn’t paying attention. You guys have listened to me vent here for decades so the least I can do is return the favor. As for getting through each day in times like this, sometimes all you can do is eat the strawberry. 31 minutes ago, tkdguy said: I just need to rant and let it all out right now. I'm in a really bad place right now. I feel so much despair about everything, and there's no one I can talk to. Family, friends, either they've got problems of their own, or they're just tired of listening to my problems. Psychologists have never done me much good. In the past I would pray, but I've lost my faith. But I feel a little better after typing this. Not much, but I'll take what I can get. Anyone not feeling despair right now isn’t paying attention. You guys have listened to me vent here for decades so the least I can do is return the favor. As for getting through each day in times like this, sometimes all you can do is eat the strawberry. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 26, 2020 Report Share Posted August 26, 2020 Thanks for trying, but I just can't buy into that hype right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Old Man Posted August 26, 2020 Report Share Posted August 26, 2020 It’s okay, I get it. This is the darkest timeline and some days the only reason I’m not curled up in a fetal position on the floor is because people are depending on me. (And you know you’re in real trouble if you’re depending on me for anything.) tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hermit Posted August 27, 2020 Author Report Share Posted August 27, 2020 On 8/26/2020 at 2:47 AM, tkdguy said: I just need to rant and let it all out right now. I'm in a really bad place right now. I feel so much despair about everything, and there's no one I can talk to. Family, friends, either they've got problems of their own, or they're just tired of listening to my problems. Psychologists have never done me much good. In the past I would pray, but I've lost my faith. But I feel a little better after typing this. Not much, but I'll take what I can get. I can't tell you what works for you, I can tell you what sometimes, for a little while, helps me when I can't talk to anyone. Laughter's medicine is not a long term fix, but for me it's a short term balm. I find some stand up comedians I like who rarely fail to make me laugh, and the chuckles help hold back the dark. Sometimes I try to write. This is very touch and go, as if anything MORE often 80% I feel blocked by what's troubling me, but sometimes just writing down to myself all that's rotten and really venting as if I were talking to someone helps me. More frequently I go the other way and am happy to throw myself into creating a place so different from my current world I can get a breather. To a certain point a long walk or some activity can help me but I'm not in great shape so that's not always an option, and it doesn't help me as much or as often. I do sometimes pray to God about my troubles. I've tried the 'count my blessings' as I state some thanks, but more often I have been somewhat tongue in cheek with something that sounds like a disgruntled customer complaining to the manager. I know you say you have lost your faith, and I'm sorry. I'd be lying to say I don't some times doubt mine. Things have gotten so bad for my family and country in some ways that I sometimes find myself taking COMFORT in the book of Job..which sounds crazy, but it's a sign that rotten terrible horrible things happen to GOOD people, and it's not always their fault or failing. I fear my fellow Americans have forgotten that, that injustice in this life is not punishment rightfully earned. We want things to make sense. Even in a world of faith, they don't sometimes... and it sucks. And I play music that either inspires hope, or expresses outrage. Sometimes the old teenage cures have merit. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 28, 2020 Report Share Posted August 28, 2020 My mom just had a stroke at 2 am. She is in the hospital now. I wasn't allowed to ride along in the ambulance because of COVID. I'm going to call the hospital and see if the family can come over to see her, but we may not be allowed in tonight. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Cancer Posted August 28, 2020 Report Share Posted August 28, 2020 Best wishes, and my sympathies. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pariah Posted August 28, 2020 Report Share Posted August 28, 2020 I'm so sorry to hear that, tkdguy. Best wishes to you and your family. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 28, 2020 Report Share Posted August 28, 2020 Thanks for all the well wishes. My mom is doing slightly better. We still can't visit her in the hospital, but we may be able to video chat with her tomorrow. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Old Man Posted August 28, 2020 Report Share Posted August 28, 2020 13 hours ago, tkdguy said: My mom just had a stroke at 2 am. She is in the hospital now. I wasn't allowed to ride along in the ambulance because of COVID. I'm going to call the hospital and see if the family can come over to see her, but we may not be allowed in tonight. There’s no prize for “Worst 2020”, you can stop trying now. Seriously though, sympathies. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hermit Posted August 29, 2020 Author Report Share Posted August 29, 2020 4 hours ago, Old Man said: There’s no prize for “Worst 2020”, you can stop trying now. Seriously though, sympathies. Kind of my thinking.. like 'wow' and not in a good way. Sympathies tkdguy, better days to you and yours. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 29, 2020 Report Share Posted August 29, 2020 My mom is doing better. I was able to speak to her over the phone an hour ago. She's still pretty weak, but she's improving. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
L. Marcus Posted August 29, 2020 Report Share Posted August 29, 2020 I've seen so many strokes, but when it comes to friends and family, it never gets easier. Hugs and sympathy, tkd. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aylwin13 Posted August 30, 2020 Report Share Posted August 30, 2020 I saw the headline last night of Chadwick Boseman's passing. After getting over the initial gut punch I got pissed. How is it that we lose great. talented people like this; but the POTSUS (Piece of Total $#!t of the United States) survives. This is such bull$#!t. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 30, 2020 Report Share Posted August 30, 2020 Here's the good news: My mom is doing better. She was transferred out of ICU. Here's the bad news: One of the pipes in the house got backed up and water filled my bedroom floor. Plumber fixed part of the problem, but the pipes are old, and I need to have a specialist come in and stick a camera inside the pipe to see what's going on. This will set me back about $400 just for the consultation, but I figure I should go ahead and do it anyway. But in the meantime, I can't sleep in my own bedroom because it smells like a sewer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 31, 2020 Report Share Posted August 31, 2020 Pipes need to be replaced. Costs are going up. Now the dishwasher is broken. My mom is still in the hospital. Everything is piling up. I'm going completely nuts right now. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Old Man Posted August 31, 2020 Report Share Posted August 31, 2020 29 minutes ago, tkdguy said: Pipes need to be replaced. Costs are going up. Now the dishwasher is broken. My mom is still in the hospital. Everything is piling up. I'm going completely nuts right now. No kidding. I’m going nuts just reading it and I’m not you. If you have family or friends you can call on for help, now’s the time. tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted August 31, 2020 Report Share Posted August 31, 2020 Well, my mom is home now, but I still have to get the pipes fixed, which will cost me 11 grand. That's the problem with living in an old house. Fortunately, family will help with the cost. But my room still smells like a sewer. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hermit Posted September 1, 2020 Author Report Share Posted September 1, 2020 Watch out for mildew tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted September 1, 2020 Report Share Posted September 1, 2020 I know. Good thing my sisters will help me pay for the new pipes. I have to get my carpet professionally cleaned after this. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
ScottishFox Posted September 1, 2020 Report Share Posted September 1, 2020 On 8/30/2020 at 2:02 AM, tkdguy said: Here's the good news: My mom is doing better. She was transferred out of ICU. Here's the bad news: One of the pipes in the house got backed up and water filled my bedroom floor. Plumber fixed part of the problem, but the pipes are old, and I need to have a specialist come in and stick a camera inside the pipe to see what's going on. This will set me back about $400 just for the consultation, but I figure I should go ahead and do it anyway. But in the meantime, I can't sleep in my own bedroom because it smells like a sewer. Brutal week you're having there. Hope everything works out! tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted September 2, 2020 Report Share Posted September 2, 2020 Just when I thought it would all be over by the end of the day, something else happens! We couldn't use the sink or the toilets while the plumbers were working. Then they said the adhesives needed another 8 hours to dry out, so another 8 hours of waiting. Then the machine broke. Maybe they'll have a new one tomorrow. The nightmare just won't end! Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hermit Posted September 2, 2020 Author Report Share Posted September 2, 2020 You're going to think I'm joking, but go buy a lottery ticket. Just one. Maybe there's some crazy balance due in this universe and you'll hit it big. If not?Well, you're out 2 bucks but at least it was a loss you had control over. 18 hours ago, tkdguy said: Just when I thought it would all be over by the end of the day, something else happens! We couldn't use the sink or the toilets while the plumbers were working. Then they said the adhesives needed another 8 hours to dry out, so another 8 hours of waiting. Then the machine broke. Maybe they'll have a new one tomorrow. The nightmare just won't end! tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Pariah Posted September 2, 2020 Report Share Posted September 2, 2020 Hell, I think each of us should buy tkdguy a lottery ticket. (Except that I live in one of only six states that doesn't sell them. Road trip...?) tkdguy 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tkdguy Posted September 2, 2020 Report Share Posted September 2, 2020 Thanks for the suggestion. I have a bunch of old lottery tickets that have a 2nd chance entry. I've been sitting on them for a while. I can enter these tonight. Hermit 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ternaugh Posted September 3, 2020 Report Share Posted September 3, 2020 4 hours ago, Pariah said: Hell, I think each of us should buy tkdguy a lottery ticket. (Except that I live in one of only six states that doesn't sell them. Road trip...?) My state doesn't have lotteries either. The casinos won't allow them. There are slot machines in most casinos statewide which are part of a joint jackpot called Megabucks. The grand jackpot starts at $10 Million, and goes up fairly steadily. I always shake my head when walking by our machines, and noting that the patron doesn't have max coins in (which means that they'd get something like $10,000 if they hit the grand jackpot). Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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