Re: The cranky thread
q: what happens when you have a blue funk and so many things to do at once and your confidence level went from 85% to 15% to do them?
a: my mid-probation performance meeting went for me badly. These last two days have been black cloud days. Tomorrow the weather don't look like to improve.
I was thinking of answering the points raised at the meeting, but feel so down I can't seem to care enough to bother to write it. I did think about what I would write, but I'm having a "5:15" moment: "Why should I care, why should I care?"
The more I think about it, the more I see their point, however much I disagree with it. And I can anticipate their response, which doesn't do me any good. Feel like I'm been ambushed, in a sense betrayed and taken things out of proportion, well to a degree.
Things did seem to slightly improve in the afternoon, but two blasted travel arrangements, are holding me back. No matter what I ssem to do to finish them, they are like a bad super-villian always returning at the wrong moment. And that one of them is the boss and he leaves first day next month isn't doing my confidence any good.
Given a choice, I'd rather not go to work tomorrow and take a sickie, but that can't happen unfortunately. Sure my blue funk may lead to sickness (ie the common cold) due to my emotional funk, but that is only a possibility.
It's been a little theaputic writing this, hope your day is better. Bazza out.
Thanks Pete. Felt like that today.
But there is a positive to this story, how horrible it is. At lunch to my surprise I found a book of about a guy who wrote about horror -- HPL. I saw about bought Lovecraft at Last, a book about the cooresspondence between HPL and a young fan. The ironic thing is that the person who introduced me to HPL, well it was his birthday yesterday. Dann late birthday presents, another thing to be cranky about.