Re: Confessions of an Online GM
Arise, arise oh dread thread and terrorize the living! Mwa ha ha![/necromancy]
My confession of today... Not really a confession. Not really a rant, either, though that's a bit closer. Just sort of a grouse, I guess. First, a bit of history:
In my Avengers: The Next Generation game, I originally signed up to be a player. Created a fun character -- Arachne, the teenaged daughter of Peter Parker. She inherited not just his powers, but also his bad luck, his uncertainty, and his angst (based pretty much off Ultimate Spider-Man, since that's the only SM I'm reading these days). I thought she'd be a larf to play -- fun personality, lotsa plot hooks, and a classic power set.
But, as fate would have it, the original GM vanished and I stepped up to the plate. I do enjoy running the game and all, but... gosh, I'm sad that I never got the chance to play Mary Parker. I mean, she's still around as a GMPC, but I don't feel like I can really play her.
The games that I run are about my players, not about me. I've been in too many games where the GM's pet character took over, and the rest of us just followed him around watching how cool he was. So I don't do that. My GMPCs can be competant, but they can't be the hero; I won't let them steal the show from my players. Arachne won't ever come up with The Big Brilliant Idea That Saves The Day, because that's the players' job. Her job is to be there, in the background, when the players need her.
Which is good -- that's the way it should be IMHO. But sometimes I wish I could just let Arachne cut loose, play her the way I would've wanted to. Normally it's not a big deal, but the reason this comes up right now is I was reading one of the "WWYCD" threads, and I thought, "I know exactly what Arachne would do in this situation. She'd call Banner or Hornet or Iron Girl and ask them to work it out." Silly, huh?